So its been a while since i last wrote a blog but things, to be honest have been hectic, unplanned and very odd. so ill start somewhere where i left,
Bishops Castle
It was a brillient weekend, as you may have read, but realizing it now it was the last decent weekend i got to spend with someone when they had not decided something.
My cousen's 21st
so after some confusion and a bit of a rush all over, i drove up and picked Shaun up from home. We took Mingles to his mums and then set off home to undertake the long drive to southend with mum and dad. It was a lovely night, everyone sat in the garden and drank while haveing a lovely BBQ and chatting to lots of people. Not forgetting that we were all dressed in hywanii gear 
After sleeping in the lounge we got up and set off home.
Wales
On return home me and Shaun set off towards Wales, i do have fond memories of Wales and i had a great time, but i really should have written about it after it happened as now the week has been analyzed over and over in my head about a thousand times.
We had some great days out though, crab fishing, jason's massive hole, king arthurs laberanth, craft centre, mac, and a trip to abba. All in all i had a great time with my friends. 
Camp
Ok so it rained but it had sunny moments too 
After many girls being home sick and crying all over people, we reckoned the rain could not get much worse. However it had other ideas and half way through the week we evacuated out of the tents and 72 girls took up residence in a quite small hall!After a rather horriable series of events camp came to an end.
But with everything that happened at camp, i think the girls enjoyed themselves they seem to want to go back anyway, we will wait and see what september brings anyway
The following weekend
The almost forgotten weekend. After everything at camp i just wanted to get home have a shower, jump in the car and got to wales with Shaun like we had arranged, pick up the bikes and come back after having a nice weekend. This however was not the case. I had got barely any sleep since the monday of camp when i drove to Shaun's. He was quiet, we drove there and had something to eat when we got there. We watched a film, and i fell asleep on him for about 30mins, still shattered we went to bed. I dont know why i asked it but i did, and i got the answer that i feared. Talking through the hours i was unsure, but throught it could be a hitch. 3 Days latter he ended it, Been thinking about it for 3 weeks, and in 3 days it was over. It seems a long time kinda now since then, it does not mean that my head has stopped thinking, its on constant over drive. The monday i started college, and drifted in on the train each morning, having too much time to think, listening to the girls telling me about their boyfriends partners. Its weird the pang in your chest when you realsie something so familiar has gone, but is there but a long way away. It feels a bit like when my family go home and i dont see them for months a bit like i am just kind of drifting. But then there is the other side that is positive and wanting to get out there and live life and do things i want to do.
College
College has been pretty good really, this week has gone so quickly and im feeling a lot more positive and happy. The mornings are a bit of a pain with getting up at 6.55, getting the train in and being in the kitchen ready to start at 8.45am. But im enjoying it and learning so much. The afternoons are filled with theory, that consists mainly of NVQ level 1.
Now
After going out for kate's birthday last night i feel a little shattered, even though i did not stay long as i was feeling as if i might fall asleep at some point :s It was good, but now i have to go to work 
so you never know i might write again after i come back from work.
